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 I have thought intently about adding this page for some time...to add...not to add...to add...not to add. The "to add" finally won out.
I guess the first experience I had with being demeaned and called derogatory names like a whore was while dating in high school. My boyfriend, or all people, and some others seemed to hang this on me as an abuse icon - but this was mainly to take away my feminity, to make me feel like a victim for being a female, and to not dress and act in a very feminine, provocative way or be called names. My boyfriend was not a sexual person and lived in Cleveland at that time. This was another "damned if you do - damned if you don't" situation in regard to him, until I finally broke up with him. Then after I got married and was in "the marriage from hell" my husband started accusing me of being unfaithful right after our son was born, because I really don't think he wanted to be a father, and used this as an excuse. When I was shang-haied to Wooster, someone wanted to bring me in "this way" as an "introduction' and insisted on this, because they wanted me to be someone other than who I really was, as an excuse for lifeong abuse. In reality, the women who really are involved with these "other circumstances" never got abused with this in any way. In fact, someone kept hiring prostitutes at places I was employed at and these people, who were overall low functioning, really did not do their jobs, but continued to get advantage after advantage because their main purpose in these jobs was not to perform what they were "supposed to" be hired to do, but to manipulate certain men at these places of employment. In Ohio, "The Limited Companies" was founded based on models who turned into prostitutes and never had any education. Then, for me, I noticed that every time I got involved in any relationship, whether with a man or a female as a friend, there was always some crank standing nearby to abuse me for this. Crooks clearly wanted to keep me trapped in an abusive marriage any way they could which "worked" for a long time. I also keep wanting to pull "teamster's gangs" into this equasion somewhere, but these two categories "seem" to be two mutually exclusive groups, and at this time I have no idea where this piece fits.
I also have always had, and will continue to have problems with prostitutes. These are women, who "bond" with some 'weirdo' kind of man, and therefore have advocacy from the man, who is too distracted by these prostitutes to do anything else. These are "pretty women with issues" who always seem to be able to have an "in" to be able to abuse me in some way. These prostitutes ALWAYS think that they are better than me, and are impudent, disrespectful, and usually have drug and alcohol use issues. This is a fact of life that I have to accept, because prostitution is part of gang activity and part of organized crime. I have had problems with people like this at jobs I have worked at, and no matter what they do, they tend to be "right", according to what I have been told and am supposed to believe. Crooks will always bring in people like this to abuse victims, because "they can" and there is little remedy for this. These prostitutes are people who want you to be like them, and are people you would never, ever choose, unless forced to relate to them for some reason. These are usually women who were "Daddy's favorites" and then took this into the organized crime area as criminals that were always forgiven and given jobs and the opportunity to abuse victims. Since I am a female, these prostitutes are obviously threatened by me and usually make some comment about me being some kind of genius,(as a put-down) during or after this abuse, which indicates that they know they are inferior, or at least think they are, so abuse me because of their own issues. It really doesn't matter if I avoid these women or act like them, the issue here is that one has to actually "be a whore and part of organized crime to not be abused", not just "act". I have tried everything I could think of to not be abused by whores, but have never been sucessful because of the "in" that these people have and the pattern that they have established. One prostitute who was bonded with a married male weirdo even showed up in what was supposed to be a legitimate job and this man was supposed to be my "backup" or supervisor, but prostitution made him totally ineffective at his job, due to being distracted. I suspect that this man's wife had similar problems in her relationship with him. This was the worst case, because I was working at an agency at the time where the people should have had routine meetings instead of "giggle fests" and did not want to, or maybe didn't have the ability to, actually work with the clients who were troubled Appalachian people at this particular rural agency housed in a hospital. In another case, a prostitute was hired to model "sexy underwear" but also be a coworker but this really didn't effect me directly so I ignored it, which I have also done in most of these other cases. This was done to influence the male supervisors there and create distractions, just as in these other cases. I was never invited to these meetings where this was happening "by coincidence", but saw the videos of this "event" and heard about it. Again, like I have said before, if these people left me and other people alone this would be less of a problem, but they never do. Someone keeps bringing prostitutes in to abuse female victims, because prostitutes are someone's "ideal woman". I think that someone got a negative idea of what women were supposed to be, so these disposable, ignorant, "pretty women" and their value systems and low level of functionality were supposed to be preferable to more normal women. This interference by whores and their weirdo men has gotten so extreme that normal women aren't even supposed to date, for fear of being taken as a prostitute, in some of these people's eyes, and are supposed to be stuck with no job in a terribly dysfunctional situation for life. This is because these organized crime weirdos and their prostitutes have gotten to a level where they are able to enclose and pen in normal women, and pull these victims into the jobs and lives they used to have, or try to do this. Victims who keep rejecting these people and their lives end up having no lives at all. I kept trying to avoid these people and their lives, but they kept finding me. These people were supposed to be my equals, but are always less than me, although they act superior and as they are better as an exceuse to abuse me, and are given backup by these male weirdos. This is a hard concept to deal with, because normal women are supposed to accept the fact that in order to live their lives, they are supposed to look like, act like, and literally be prostitutes or gang members or keep getting abused. Telling these people to go away or ignoring them only makes them be more cohesive with one another, and abuse the people not a part of the "secret". In addition to this, these people are masters at projection and keep projecting their own inadequacies on victims, and if the victims say anthing at all about this interference they are discarded and called "mentally ill". The people who are empowered to "do something" about these deplorable situations with these abusive whores are never effective advocates, always being too distracted by the whores and calling the complaintant the "problem". This is why at one point I got frustrated by this continually repetitive situation and thought: "In order to be a part of this, I am supposed to be a low functioning whore, never myself, or be in constant conflict with trash that is supposed to be equal to me and whose only purpose there is to create and foster conflict and to cause distractions to keep people from exposing "the secret"." Being included in this is like a child who is stuck in an incestuous family which cannot be escaped from due to being a dependant child.
I have heard the statement before, more than once, that "One's own issues seem to follow them around, and manifest themselves again and again". I suspect that this is what could be happening with this "prostitute issue". I had a lot of issues with my own mother because she abused me, and I clearly recall an episode, that stuck in my mind, involving my mother and a drunk, one door over neighbor who was a truck driver. My mother never worked and my father was gone a lot. My mother was not a prostitute, but a pretty woman with no real job skills, although she claimed she met my father at work, in an office. I think this "prostitute issue" bothers me the most because it is similar to my mother abusing me, but no one wanting to do much about this, because she was under stress, and was "so pretty" when younger. This is the same kind of thing that I have noticed keeps happening when it comes to real life prostitutes and normal women, in a '"who 'wins'" type of scenerio. Maybe I 'missed it', or don't know about even one case where a normal woman was victorious in a situation that involved a prostitute, but I can honestly say I have never seen one, particularly in Columbus, Ohio where this is so rampant.
One of my objections in this "feminine mystique" area is...
the fact that no matter what I looked like, and no matter what I said, someone was always following me around either trying to sexualize me in a demeaning way, or to make comments about my appearance, which were always derogatory comments. I never chose the entertainment or modeling industries, and in reality the way I look has nothing to do with my role or with who I am, so this was just plain mean and abusive. This is also an indication of the group of people who were causing this abuse, and surrounded me. I have definately noticed that not all women, just by the virtue of being female, are subjected to this particular kind of abuse. This is like the group of people, male and female, who are sexually addicted, or are perpetrators who would do things like this. Apparently, I was not "allowed" to be in a normal relationship, or be employed like everyone else because crooks didn't like the way I looked and continually kept trying to put me in a different group than the one I really belong to.
 Crooks tend to want to pull the victims into degraded positions and in this particular area, crooks use this way first to attack and harass female victims. They tend to prey on people who already have a low self esteem and then end to get worse and worse in setting these scenerios up. In this Ohio cult this is particularly prevalent and examples of this kind of thing that these male abusers here do and then laugh at can be seen on "The Jerry Springer Show"and related types of media 'spinoffs'. An extreme example of this happened to me when I was employed in a social work position on the east side of Columbus and my life was literally "crashed" which was and is characteristic of organized crime and in particular the prostitution part of organized crime in Ohio. In my life they created which appeared to be collusiion to me because my car was rearended my a franklin county van and I was taken to a nearby medical hospital. In addition to this a "Gang"which was composed of adults and juveniles moved on the street where we lived and created a hostile home situation. They created antics on the street where we then rented a house and broke into the house to take things when noone was home. This did not occur in the city oc Coumbus but in a subburb in the northern part of Columbus. In the past I heard about this prostitution involving Sandusky near Lake Erie and Sandusky county but was not really subjected to this kind of abuse in Coulumbus before this particular "hijacking"type of incident occurred in my life. I suspect most of these victims are sexually abused first. In my life I was abused in general first and did not really want to talk about this part of my life - but the crooks have a way of finding victims whether these victims verbalize this or not. Also in my life I was never the prostitute but I was dating and in this datin and the other things that occurred such as sexual assult which is listed elsewhere on this iste - the crooks were aware. |
